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I look at myself and I realize that I have a long ways to go spiritually speaking. I see my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ kneeling before Mass praying their hearts and souls out to God, and sometimes I don't even know what to say to Him. Is it totally wrong to get jealous of someone else's ability to pray better than me? I think it is.

As the Scriptures say the Holy Spirit will help you ask God for what you don't know what to ask God for. I used to ask the Holy Spirit for help in prayer all the time. I used to pray constantly before bed. I always knew what to say. I stopped praying for the help of the Holy Spirit, and my prayer life is drastically decreasing.

I look at other people and see how truly devoted to God they are. Don't get me wrong, I am devoted to God - but not as much as I maybe should be. Sometimes when I have interior struggles, I don't turn to God automatically as I should, I try to fix the problem myself - which I know isn't the right way to go about doing things.

I go to Confession and confess my sins. That Sacrament is incredibly healing. Those sins that are weighing down on my heart are something that I need to get off of my chest periodically, and what a great vessle God has given us to do so!

I try to talk to God as much as I can. God and my family, and school are the most important things to me in this point of my life - and I hope that it continues to be that way. I just have to realize that I'm not perfect, and that I am always growing in His love. As I have said before - I am a work in progress.